the Homework Gal

I just love how I could like a guy and the only reason they might talk to me is because of homework. That's it. They want help on their homework. Really? Can I be of no other use than (hopefully) correct answers? Let me vent about this because it's driving me nuts.

I'm sure somebody is thinking I should be lucky they talk to me at all. OR that I'm just another silly girl. But hey you know what, I am a silly girl. I talk about shoes, I worry about what I look like in the morning, my goodness one time I even got upset over breaking a nail. Not even kidding (how pathetic). Yet the thing I'm trying to get at is, so has every other girl. Maybe not exactly but we all know what I mean. What makes me different that I turned into the homework girl? Don't even think that I'm smart, because there are lots of people smarter than I am. I am no special case. What walls have I put up around myself that make me inapproachable. I can't be the only one who has ever felt this way. It's frustrating being limited in my character to a single role (we are no longer talking about just guys, I'm getting at being dubbed the smart one) in life.

I want to break out of this. Really bad. I don't mean this now as it pops into my head while writing. I mean this as something I have given thought to continuously. This year I'm going to try to step out and open up. Yes "open up" is generic, but it's exactly what I want to do. And hey if it lets me talk to that cute guy in class, about something other than homework, well that's quite a bonus =]