November 11th. Yep that's the dreadful day. I know I must sound crazy, but I really don't want my birthday to come this year. Even my parents think I'm nuts. They keep asking me what I want, and I keep telling them nothing. So for whatever reason they keep asking. As if I'm going to change my answer or something.
Anyway, the reason I don't want my birthday to come is simple. It's overrated. Everybody is making turning 16 into a big deal. I've never really celebrated my birthday, so what's the difference now. What's the point? Usually it's celebrating freedom, because that's when you get your licence, but I'm not getting mine for 3 months. When I turned 15 I told them I didn't want anything. They said fine. It didn't matter. So what's different this time? Money is the difference for me. I can't ask my parents for something when money is so tight. Birthday or not, more "stuff" isn't necessary. I don't need it.
I suppose I'm not being honest when I say I didn't want anything this year. I wanted to see this guy again. And he promised too. Then again he promised me a lot. So my birthday will just be a reminder of what was. I don't want to go through that... who would?
Anyway the closer it gets the more I wish I was done with it already. Normally people start counting down, excitement building with each passing day. And that's fine. It's not me though. Don't avoid saying happy birthday because your afraid I'll attack you or something. I won't =]
Beauty.
14 years ago
1 comment:
well i am going to agree with you 100%. this year for some odd reason i dont care if i have a birthday. i guess to me i just look back at all the stupid stuff and then look ahead at all the other stupid stuff and think another year wont make a difference. truly.. i could care less about turning 16. no big deal to me. idk
just thought id share that tought.
Mucho Love
-Mollz ♥
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